When Life Hands You Lemons

Image by Jill Wellington from Pixabay

A couple of months ago. I received a notification from Twitter telling me that my profile image violated their terms of use. I complied with their instructions and changed the offending image. I found it a little ironic that the image that was so offensive was so tame compared to some of the ones that I have seen in my timeline. As I was venting about it to The Unicorn she informed me that trigger of these events was likely being reported by someone. That Twitter as an organisation wouldn’t normally identify an offending image and take action. I would concur as the image had been in place for possibly years with no issues. In a fit of defiance I posted an image from the #travellingboob series. 

It was a foolish decision made without any adult consideration. I knew it wasn’t compliant but like a teenager I didn’t stop to consider the consequences. Things went well for a couple of weeks but of course it was only a matter of time. And then I was in Twitter jail again. Despite all of my ranting and frustration at communicating with Bots and their automated system they were the ones with the power. And I was a small person who didn’t matter to them. 

And so my account is suspended. Which is frustrating. Frustrating because their response to my question; “Does that mean I can’t re-open this account ever?”  Was “your account has been suspended and will not be reactivated?” They haven’t deleted the account. I can’t delete the account so it sits there in suspended animation with the offending profile image on display. Maybe one day it will come back to life. In the meantime I am left to take stock.

I regret being impulsive because it has affected traffic to my blog. Something I didn’t stop to consider properly. I have lost contact with a few people who I kind of wish I didn’t, also something I didn’t stop to consider properly. My perception of social media has changed a little during this process. I used to think it was a piece of fluff that we used to fill our time. And it is. But it is also something else. A tool for connecting to people. It would be easy to think that one platform can be replaced by another but that is not so. They are all different. They don’t serve the same purpose. And if the community you are connected to all use a particular platform you are kind of forced to use it too. 

And so here I sit. Taking stock of what I am doing with the blog, with my writing. I have always said that I only blogged for my own purposes and wouldn’t be driven by traffic. That is still true, up to a point, but it feels pointless putting words out into thin air. There has to be some kind of function to my writing. I need to feel that there is someone getting pleasure from my words. Ultimately it would be amazing if people liked it enough to give me money for my words but finding those people and providing words worth money is something I am not sure I have the wherewithal to do. 

As a step towards finding paying customers I opened a Medium account. I haven’t posted there yet but as part of this ‘taking stock” process I am getting some pieces ready. I am not abandoning Corrupting Mrs Jones as I only really want to post fiction on Medium. So you will all still be subjected to my rambling thoughts. I started this year determined to keep up a sustained presence on Corrupting Mrs Jones. I have achieved that goal and for a while the traffic reflected that. Until my nipples got in the way. What it has shown me is that I am OK as a writer. I just need to be a bit more focussed. In the wash-up I regret being impulsive but I think it has given me the nudge I needed. As they say, onwards and upwards. 

Wicked Wednesday

The Not Goal

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Towards the end of December I started thinking about what I am doing with this blog. 2021 is going to be a very different year for me, Corona related differences aside. I am planning to have a separate blog for my sailing adventure, one that my family, friends and school colleagues (and no doubt some enterprising students!) will be able to follow. I started blogging as a way to share my creative writing and later, my journey through the world of swinging. As my career changed so did my focus a little and my blogging took a bit of a back seat.

At the end of 2019 I re-energised my blogging and made a consistent effort to keep posting throughout 2020. I am pleased to say that the unspoken resolution of growing this page during 2020 has been achieved! Success was in not thinking of the whole resolution but in chipping away bit by bit.

I recently read an article written by my blogging hero, Marie Rebelle, at her new site Blogable. In this article she discussed ways to organise your blog to make it easier to navigate for readers. It got me thinking about my rambling pages and then exactly what I was trying to achieve. I don’t have a specific answer yet but something that has bugged me for a while is my tendency to start series and then kind of peter out. Howard and Lily being my most recent example.

This is NOT a resolution but I may need some accountability here. 2020 was the year of actually putting words on the screen. 2021 will be the year of making the words into a story that is longer than 1000 – 1500 words. I have looked at NoNoWriMo several times but, for southern hemisphere me, the month of November is the end of the school year. Only a teacher with suicidal tendencies and no need for sleep would commit to writing 50, 000 words in the same month as finalising assessment and reports for approximately 120 students!!

And so 2021 will be the year of making longer stories, maybe in fits and starts, but longer stories none the less. My plan is to do this in the same way as I did 2020. By not thinking about the whole goal but just chipping away quietly bit by bit. I have several thousand words in draft form sitting in various places including some new ones that have not seen the light of day. Maybe they will happen along sometime.

This post is part of Steeled Snake J is for January. To see who else is making New beginnings click here.